I looked at her while we waited for our orders to arrive. She was distracted, constantly looking at her phone and texting someone. I tried to illicit a reaction to her not paying attention to me; anger, annoyance, joy, reactions I would normally have felt almost immediately in this situation. Instead, I found myself feeling something else, or rather, not feeling anything at all and I realized, I did not care anymore what she did and with whom, and it was scary for a moment.
She finally looked up from her phone, her face, relaxed and happy. I smiled, genuinely for the first time this evening. "And how are you?", I asked in return.
"Oh the same." She replied. "Nothing has changed with me."
It was the same answer she has given for the past months; Nothing has changed. Was our relationship really such a trivial experience for her to have no reaction or response? Or was she simply saying that for the same reasons I said, "I'm good"? I quickly pushed such thoughts out of my head. I knew that if I over thought things, it would only end badly for me and I did not want to spoil my mood this evening.
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